Dear Griever,

A friend of mine wrote for me a letter from a man's "diary" who's wife had died...I can't afford to key in what the man wrote as it is soo sad....I was really..like tergamam...I can't say a word after reading it...just to feel sorry to both the husband and wife...and betapa mulianye hati lelaki itu...I just can't imagine if that happens to me ceh mcm dh ada isteri gitukan? hee...well yah...so sad...it will be more sad if the letter was read and the guy play a piano..cnfrm sedih gila....mak oi...kau....huhu...

its not easy to find a good setia guy nowdays...(alamak sounds mcm am a girl) tsk3...what I mean was seriously its hard...most guys that I met cnfrm attached, or ada ramai wanita sekeliling pinggang..or dh ada ex..tk cukup dh suka org ni abeh nk rapat dgn girl lain...I will understand if u ada bestfriend wanita tapi u nk matair..so its kinda diff..but ni tk...pastu worst part...stalker...haizz....and the sedih part is...semua girl2...adalah dari kalangan pelajar madrasah....seriously I don't know what happen to all these girls...even worst ada ckp yg pegang tangan n cium opposite gender bukan zina....hey kau dari sekolah mana ni?? Madrasah kan?? kau bodoh ke ape?? malukan madrasah kau seh!!...and as young as 15 dh french kiss?? what the heck!! abeh bawak masuk lelaki dlm rumah whn no one except u alone kt umah pastu tk pkai tudung plak tu...abeh skrg dia dh break dgn kau..kira kau dh tk suci lah kan? org tu dh rasa kau...hey mana kau letak martabat kau sebagai wanita?? ISlam letak martabat seorg wanita amat tinggi and kau jatuh kan diri kau mcm tu aje?? am sure everyone knw about the hadith which prophet Muhd (PBUH) saying who should you love most after Allah and Rasul (PBUH) its ur mother 3 times...a mother is a woman..there u see! haizz...tak tahu lah kan korg...tk tahu lah ape akn jadi....am just sad about what happen towards madrasah students....

After all these while, well I can say that you don't trust me don't you...well maybe you trust me, but not 100%....well a great friend of mine told me, "there's no such thing as 100% trust...." well I deny that actually...but as time goes...I don't know...maybe it's true...well I guess 99% trust is the maximum that a human being can give...but what do you say about your bestfriend not trusting you fully?? and it has been a long time you guys are bestfriends?? is it ok for not trusting your best friend fully?? I don't know....for me it is like cheating...but am not sure...if you guys disagree...I mean its ur best friend? why is there any doubt?? hmm....well I guess thats the imperfection of a human being...but for me I believe in someone fully, if he or she backstabbe me, well I leave it to God...

After all this years we had became friends and had gone a lot of things together...and you did that to me? well guess what? you are right am hurt...n what majok?? hello?! am hurt ok!!...doesnt mean am close to that person I will tell that person everything...at the first place am not close to that person..have you ever seen me in action with that person?? no right?? U told my siblings but U didnt tell me all bcoz U thought that am close to that person..hey am much closer wth u then that person seh...and U did this to me...well cool uh...u told my siblings but not me...and u told them not to tell me and I was at the scenario....what a cool way....well yah I told u my secret, but you?? enth lah...I dont know how am I to face you...maybe it is not the right time...its just not the right time u did that to me....well am having a major problem here and u did that to me..

I had just settled my score with a friend of mine now is you....enthlah...am sure and of coz well act as tho nothing happen between me and you as I treassure the friendship we had build...but yah...the pain I guess will remain inside....thx for everythng tho, well am I worth a trust?? thats why they can't trust me? had I ever broken u guys' secret?.......so.. 100% trust??? does it exist??

Dear Journal,

Today I was very angry with 2 Apek....how I wish I could just punch them! I was in half tears despite having a fit muscular body, when they started to push me and pick up a fight with me, everyone inside the bus was looking at me, I was sooo paisey tht how I wish I could burst to tears...the bus was crowded, and I ask this one apek to go in, then it all started there he said "Boleh masuk tk skrg? kt tempat ni?" and actually yes he cn go in..then he kept repeating the same thing (wht the heck!) then suddenly his friend started to push me around, due to my respect for elders I dont dare touch or fight them..or am just a coward...so yah..they push me around..and seriously mata aku dh berair!!....so theres makcik2...help me out....and stop the apek2...and the apek2 dh menggatal dgn makck2 ni plak...muka gatal habis seh!! mintak kena tumbuk je uh...tapi aku dh nk naggis ni..paiseynye aku, semua tgk kat aku...tahan babe tahan...maintain cool babe maintain....fooh...apek2 tu dh turun dari bus pun...selamat aku...thx uh makcik...

Suddenly theres this one smart educated looking guy approached me, and said



So sambung2.....well I was assignd to be faci to a cool blue team...we decided to name ourselves "I.C.E" (Intelligent, Creative, Energetic) Cool kape?? cool kan kan kan? well it consist of diff type of people....

1) Seifer (well eventually he is my lil couz...so got same group mah)
2) Einstein ( Most of you should know who is this fellow is....nyehehe..its the MIN..huahuahua)
3) Zack ( The prata boy!! its closety's teman istimewa..kakaka!! k joke joke)
4) Alim ( a very energetic guy, very friendly! a pleasant guy to talk with, and also full of enthusiasm)
5) Afiq( an idiotic guy, step nk mampos..tk campur org, gitu pi masuk camp uat pe bodoh? asl? kau geram pe aku ckp kau bodoh? sini uh one on one..aku cnfrm kau tk berani pnya...muka pathatic n retard lah kau! cnfrm tk tahu fight, kental pe klau nk fight panggil kawan? any how aku tk rasa pun kau baca)
6) Martin ( a very calm and cool guy! smart somemore! like his style!!)
7) Daniel ( another cool and knowledgeable guy)
8) Qibas ( he is friendly and cool with anythng! he is even cool with ppl calling him Qibas(sheep in arabic) hehe, so as a token, our flag instead of having ice cube as our symbol we draw a sheep hehe )
9) Hafiz ( A small boy which is fun to be with)
10) Aqid ( A tall and friendly fellow but a times lazy due t tiredness)

Well basically my team mates most of them are cool as an ice hahax...look at the faci?? its Squall mah....and yah one heck of a camp The Coolest team won 1st place for the camp...so yah how bout a round of applause!! *clap clap clap*

Well, we all started the camp with ice breaking games, its wacko before that we introduce among our own team mates, well all approach their facis with welcoming arm...some of them are kinda shy...hello boy? shy eh? hehe...thn the guy I told u yg mapek kan, I ask "wht's ur name?" the he ansd "uat pe nk tahu" thn I was like "wht the heck! kau dtg camp utk ape seh? and hello?? its BONDING camp got it?? haiyo! mapek sak ni budak...thn one of my team mates told me dia emo uh...so starting from tht day...we all cll him emo..hahax...nnti dia dok sorg2 uh...so yah tu je for night 1...coz assemble at base after isyak..

K we woke up for our subuh...thn tadarus thn at 8am we had our breakfast, thn ape lagi? the best part!! BOWLING FOR 2 GAMES!!! and THE MOST BEST PART OF IT, FREE!!!!!! 2 GAME BOWLING FREE!!! WOOO HOOO!!!! so yah typical of Squall...first few throw will be damn mapek!! and i'll be at the last position ofr the 1st few throws...but another half...I just made it to top 3 or even won the league hehe....tht is wht usually happens whn am playing bowling, fr the 1st round from last position I came up to be 2nd place...and for the 2nd round I was at the 3rd place..cool uh?? hehe...biasa gak Squall....hehehe

After that we had lunch nasi lemak near esplanade..and theres some skaters wanting to entertain us while we lepak2..like duh...thn one of my friend was or is a skater i ask..do u did these kinda stuff? n dia rep yah.... I was like wht the heck! get a life!! hahax!

After that AMAZING RACE!! this amazing race kinda fun! but at first I was like OMG!! all my mates tk nk lari seh! only 5 of us je yg semangat, the other half jalan je...maybe coz morale down gila coz we were the last team to solve a case at the 1st check point....but half of us never give up! ICE cn do it! so yah...on the way pak bunaweh *mimic farid* from explanade to maulana mosque...we go n pray zuhor after that we need to go to the PADANG..so suddenly from 5 people ran now becomes 6! wee!!! coz the 6th guy know where to go...i mean he knows the short cut!! hahax!! well actually I solve the short cut route..hee ceh ceh nk bangga..

So after that we need to go to the oldest Mosque in Spore tht is Kg umar melaka is it? yar...it was build in 1820..hee...so yah...from last place we catch up to become 4th placing..hee!! way to go!! out of 10..and the last group to solve the puzzle jadi 4 dh cukup bagus pe tu?? hehe oh oh and then we need to go to fort gate..cool gila uh! mcm kt chamber of secret! ada satu tempat ni satu org je leh masuk...style!! closety ckp lame...hahax k thn we need to go to bussuroh mall (agaknye lah spell nye) maen timbang takroh 10 times..3 times per person... i sucks big time at timbang bola seh!! tsk3...nama je soccer player...hehe....

So after that it was maghrib and free and easy...so after isyak... BBQ!!! and presentation!! like any presentation..most girls go n singing some song...while guys more on sketch...theres one pathatic gatal girl pnya team suruh maen game karot...mapek seh!! and heck not a single BBQ food I got to taste! ape2 lah...hahax..tk heran pun!...and yar during that camp closety was sick...and so is my adik2 sedara...so kinda took care of them...korg bersyukur tau dapat abg sedara yg penyayang kakaka!!! so after BBQ its MOVIE MARATHON!!! start with madagascar 1!! then!! ZzZzZzZz I feel asleep...hahax!! mana tknye masuk office dok baring kat sofa..ambil bantal peluk and bantal utk kepala and SLEEP!!!! COMFY GILA PNYA!!! FELT LIKE HOME SEH!!! and suppose to have Qiyam at 5am thn movie habis at 3am..walau! serious kape?? but yah qiyam tk jadi..kwang3...so yah kesokan harinye the usual thng..presentation cheer bla3..and balik!!! actually ada bnyk fun thngs to type uh cuma malas gitu kan?? hehe k bubye!! end of a lame story!

THIS STORY WILL BE KINDA LONG BUT BEST JUGA TAU!! HAHAX!! BACA2!! hee

Well its a high low heck of 3 straight days...well not as dramatic as ehem2...someone cried, hee! piece! firstly I had a fight with these particular girl who has problem with miss independent....I wanted to meet both of them at the same time before we go to YS bonding Camp, I owe miss independent wanton noodles so I thought I can settle things down between this girls...but end up my dad wants to go to victory restaurant and have dinner together! so what happen??? the "date" was canceled and I bet!! little girl felt that she is the happiest girl on earth at that particular moment..hahax!! So what a sad thing miss independent had reached the destination where we should be eating together....I kinda felt sad...I called her and she was kinda sad plus disappointed...so I decided to be late for a while for my dinner with my family, my dad mum and sis were from somewhere while my bros were from home and I was from somewhere....eventually the place where we should meet was nearby so I ran...and when I reached there miss independent was kinda shocked and yes yes A face of relieved hee...I told her " GO and take ur seat I buy drink for you.." so yah I accompany her for about 15- 20 mins and paid for her meals and drink. I asked her " Are you ok now?" thn she rep "kind of..." thn just smile....fooh...nasib2...I made the girl happy...it is just against my nature to make a girl unhappy ceh!! bebual mcm paham padahal dah sakitkan hati closefriend aku enth berapa ribu kali!! so yah I told her it reminds me of a story of two friends one is a Malay girl and a Chinese Guy, the story goes like:-

"Hello...Vincent..am lonely lah...you come here and accompany me lah..." Malay Girl said

"Hello...oh..where are you?(then the girl rep) oh ok lor ok lor...eh later uh am busy uh..k k bye!" He replied

So the girl was kinda disappointed....but 5-10mis later......She saw the guy came to her..with his motor....

WAH LAN!!!! SWEET GILA KAN???? "eh ok ok am busy uh" then suddenly he appear in front of you...so sweet kan this fellow???

And yah thts what miss independent said "sweet.....diorg mataer eh?" then I said "No lah...there are just friends...and friends cn also be sweet...hee" so yah after that I told her I need to rush...and yah...as a token of appreciation she ask me to eat SAYUR... (-_-")..... "eh makan ni sayur!" kau....sungguh tk sweet langsung seh kau miss independent...tsk3....and when am on my way to Victory restaurant i compose a msg to miss independent I created a "bunga api" with a msg saying Am Sorry for making you disappointed, and a msg "From the bottom of my heart I beg u for forgiveness, please do forgive me." (K is that sweet??)

So yah I rushed to Victory restaurant and eat my mee kuah!! the mee kuah is super duper sedap!! CLOSETY!!! AND AGENT T!!! you two should TRY IT MAH!!!

And yah after that solat magh and then camp start mah!! I was assigned to be the faci for my fvrt colour blue team!! yes ah!! and what a day....little girl and miss independent was at the same group hahax!! AMBIL KO!! hehe....well I guess I stop here ait...

Peace Be upon you..Squall's here..please do the regular rules that I told you..hee ^_^

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